Thursday, May 13, 2010

Now I've got something to blog about


So it's time for an angry blog. And I guess "angry" is the right word. Maybe aggravated or stressed or maybe even annoyed is a better term. Either way, whatever word you choose, this blog is about letting off some steam.

And really, as usual, in 24 hours I will probaby be completely over this, happy again, wondering why I even wrote this blog and I may even delete it. But it's something that's bugging me, bugging me enough I feel the need blog out my frustrations.

AND as per usual, the anxiety is coming from relationship things. Overall, Barista and I are A-OK. We're not fighting. He's not being a douchebag or any of that. It's more so it's art that's getting in the way.

As you may recall, the Barista is an artist, a good one actually. And this Friday is his first ever solo art show, so he's in full swing on creative mode.

WELL, when the Barista is in creative mode, he becomes a recluse, and Drew gets tossed to the side, slightly forgetten about until his art is done and he remembers that he has a boyfriend. OR that's at least how it feels.

We go from seeing eachother, especially recently, almost every day, to nothing. And I could handle it if it was just that. I don't need to see him everyday. I like to and I want to, but if I can't NBD. I'll survive and manage.No, but what bugs me is that all communication seems to get shut off. No texts, no phone calls etc. That's what bugs me.

And I hate sounding like a needy whiney Bella inspired girl. Someone who thinks they need to be with a man at all times, and I'm not completely that way. BUT I do like to be able to talk to my boyfriend without feeling like I'm being a nusance.

And I don't need constant communication either, and it's also not that he is COMPLETLY blown me off. It's just that a text that at least says. "hi, how's your day" or even "hi, leave me alone. I'm focusing on the show." would be appreciated.

And what further adds to the annoyance is that I won't get a text back from something I sent him 2 hours ago, but in between then I'll see 3 or 4 tweets from him about the show...... Even though he will yell at me if I tweet before texting social media and technology I spose.

SO yea. And it's not that I don't support him. I do. And we've talked about it and he's warned me that's how gets and I said. Okay, I can handle that. And for the most part I do. Well, minus this whole blog thing right now.

I guess my issue is that I feel like I'm the one doing all the work and making the sacrifices and saying "okay, Barista, go ahead and do your art". I'll just sit here and wait for your to return. And he doesn't have to try for me. And I like to think I'm not expecting a lot. But even if you took a timeout and said. Okay, Drew, I'll make time to have dinner or lunch with you. Or go ahead and come over. I'd be happy. But I'm just kinda hurt I guess he doesn't seem to care and is just "leave me alone, I have to do my art".

And also, my friend Pocket has been helping him with the show. Just logistics stuff and getting ready. And I'm kinda jealous that he hasn't asked me. Even after I told him a couple weeks ago that I wanted to help him more. But once again, I asked him today when he wanted me to help and he said that him and pocket had it covered. And yea, I'm kinda hurt....................ugh I sound like such a baby right now. I feel like as the bf, I should be there. Helping. Making sure its going right. I mean, for christs sake, I'm an event planner. I know what the hell I'm doing.

And in his "defense" he did have lunch with me yesterday. BUT I think it was really just because he wanted to pick up the projector I had gotten for him for his art show. And not really because he had any interest in seeing me.

And I know this blog is whiney and complainy and Barista sounds like he's being a total dick.

He's not really. Our relationship is Fine like I said. And I do know that come tomorrow night at 10pm when his art show is done, we'll be fine. It's just something that's bugging me for the time being.

And he's not meaning to do any of it on purpose. I know he loves me etc. It's just how he does his art. And it is ultimately something I'm going to have to deal with if I want to keep him. And I do. So I will. And I'm guessing as time goes on I'll get more and more used to it.

So. yea. That's what's bugging me. Getting ditched by my boyfriend so he can go be creative and make great art.

Barista, if you happen to read this. Lo Siento. i know you don't mean to. I promise, in reality I'm fine. It's just me in one of my moody/whiney baby modes.

Until next time.

******SIDE NOTE*******
SO, of course. A couple hours after I blog this who stops by while I'm interning at DMSC.
The barista. Granted, it was for literally 30seconds, but he did stop by to say HI.
And now I'm in a better mood.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Another day another dollar


So blogger apparently hates me. I have actually posted blogs in between now and the last time I posted (granted it has only been a couple, my bad) but for some reason, blogger didn't want to post them.
And instead of posting now old information, I'm just getting over it.Moving on and posting today.

And I don't feel like trying to play catch up with the last month of my life, even though there really hasn't been anything too excting. So I'm just going to go with a new post and talk about "my future".

In less than 2 weeks I will officially be a college graduate, and while 8 months ago that thought scared the crap out of me, I am now 100% ready! I'm excited to move on and grow up and begin life. And while I slightly worry I might regret that a couple months into the grown up life thing, I'm still fine with it.

I have found a job. Right now it's only 15 hours a week. But it's a job none the less and even better, it's exactly what I want to do. so HORRAY!

I'll be the "director of social media and anyalytics" for an on-line based social media consulting firm here in the DSM area. Which means, I'll be creating blogs,twitter accounts, facebook and whatever else for our clients. I'll also teach them how to use it and do it themselves, so we can ultimately turn it over to them to run.

I'm excited, since this company is slightly new and I'm one of the few staffers, I have a chance to grow with the company and when I interviewed my boss told me there's a good chance it will turn into a full time and salaried position. BOO YAA!

So, I'll definitally keep you up to date on how that goes.

With that, I've decided to not return to camp this summer and stick around DSM. A few guys from the house and I are leasing a town home, so it should be fun. I'm just really excited to finally spend a summer in DSM. I never have, so I can't wait for everything. Pride, Arts Festival, 80/35 etc. etc. It should be a gooood time!

But I guess that's about it. I'll do my best to get back into blogging regularly, I promise.

And also, I'm in the midst of switching platforms. Turns out most people in the social media world use wordpress to blog, including my new company. And since it would probably be a good idea for me to join with the times and know how to use what the industry uses, I'm switching to that, and the blog will take a bit of a turn and become more about my life as a YP in DSM. And not so much a "here's what's going on in my life. La de da".

But I promise it'll still be just as entertaining.


Sunday, April 4, 2010

I'm still here

Wow. Time has flown. I really didn't realize it had been a MONTH since I last blogged. My bad.

And I'm not really sure why. Part of it is a week of that month I was gone down to Florida for Spring Break with no internet access, so that was a problem and then when I got back I kind of had to hit the ground running with school and all that fun stuff and so really, blogging became the last thing on my mind. That, and I'm doing my best to actually blog about legitimate things, not just ramble on about my life and I couldn't think of anything legit to talk about, so I didn't blog and now it's been over a month and I feel guilty, so I'm blogging.

But anyways.

I've finally started the big kid job search. I've decided that I would ultimately like to stay in Des Moines and find a job and work, and am now planning on camp as my back up plan in case I don't find anything.

As far as jobs, I'm still thinking events and PR, but would also love something in social media, either as a consultant or analyst at a social media consulting firm. OR, as a social media person for an individual company itself. So, I've been looking and talking and trying to get advice from people who are currently in the field to see where I should be looking and what I should be doing.

It's kind of exciting. I'm finally ready to actually grow up and graduate. Yes, I'm definitely going to miss my friends and some of the perks that go with college. But I'm looking forward to living in a real house or apartment, having a normal job, grocery shopping, and actual free time. It'll be nice to not have to worry about homework or making sure I make it to all 20 of my meetings every week.

I suppose my biggest worry though right now with job hunting, besides actually finding a job. Is trying to find one that 1) I'm going to enjoy and 2) making sure I'm good at it. I'm slightly scared that I'll find a job and take it and then turn around and suck at it and then I won't enjoy it and I'll be in trouble. But I guess we'll see.

But that's it for now.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Now Playing @ The Temple for Performing Arts

"A salute to the Baby Boomer Generation, The Wonder Bread Years is a fast-paced, hilarious production that gracefully walks the line between stand-up and theater. Audiences across the country are enjoying a show that not only restores a much-needed sense of wonder, but leaves audiences laughing and savoring the past like never before."

If you're looking for a show that's going to have you laughing so hard your side hurts and you have tears in your eyes, this isn't the show for you. If your looking for a good way to spend 2 hours being entertained, while strolling down memory lane, then "The Wonder Bread Years" will do the trick.

It was apparent this show was for the baby boomers when I walked into the theatre and there were only a handful of people younger than my grandparents. And it was solidified when the star of our show (Pat Hazell, it's a one man show PS) made references to the manwhich jingle, clackers and wearing bread sacks; and while they went above my 22 year old head, the rest of the audience laughed knowingly.

BUT for the most part, the jokes were cross generational and I was able to laugh along, thinking of my own childhood experiences dealing with the kid who turned his eyelids inside out, recycled unisex halloween costumes, and dad's inability to babysit.

The description says the show gracefully walks the line between standup and theatre, but I would say it probably trips and falls more into the standup catagory. There's no real storyline, Hazell tended to follow the standup routine and skipped from topic to topic; ranging from childhood addictions to sugar to holidays. And he delivers it all in a conversational tone that made me feel like I was listening to someone tell a story, not watching a play.

What I enjoyed most about the show was it's ability to seemingly bring the audience together. Whether with his slideshows that featured ads from the 60's (well, I think it was the 60s.before my time anyway), the jokes that everyone got or just some comment he had. People knew what he was talking about, because they watched/played with or thought that exact same thing at some point in their life.

So overall, it was an enjoyable show. It wasn't best thing I've seen, but it wasn't the worst. I was entertained the whole time, laughed on ocassion and left happy.

So, if you're looking for something to do between now and March 21st and feel like taking a walk down memory lane, then I suggest taking a look at "The Wonder Bread Years."

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Take your sustainability and shove it, and I don't mean recycle it. I mean throw it away and let it rot in a landfill.

So, I support the whole going green movement as much as the next guy.

I recycle as best I can, I shut off the lights when I leave a room, WALK whenever possible, prefer paper over plastic and don't use bags from the grocery store whenever I can.

I believe that Global Warming is happening and that we could all work a little harder to "save the environment," but here's the deal. You can only push your sustainability agenda so far.

What do I mean?

Welllll, at SimpCo we have a handful of individuals who make manage to bring sustainability up EVERY chance they get and it's getting to the point where they make me want to burn styrofoam,use as MANY plastic sacks as I can and drive a hummer.

SGA heard over and over about this issue of "styrofoam cups in the grill and dining hall" and they're bad for the environment and bla bla bla. Everytime we heard this, we told them we'd look into it. We DID. We talked to the COLLEGE PRESIDENT about the issue, who told us he'd look into it as well and we let all of them know. But yet 2 days later we still get an e-mail sharing their concern as a result of reading the SGA minutes-which SAID we had brought it up to the president!!!

We're curently undergoing a change in the laundry facilities. SGA was informed of this decision and one of our little eco-warriors went off because the dryers weren't "energy star approved". WELL, turns out that's because energy stary dryers DO.NOT.EXIST!!

I do, I understand the importance of being green and doing those little things to help the environment. But that's exactly it. You have to pick your battles! I ASSURE you Simpson and SGA is doing what we can to help our school be green, but you have to remember it also means $$$ and time. And those aren't an endless resource either.

I give these eco-warriors KuDoS. I applaud them for being so passionate about an issue. I wish I could be more that way in an all honesty. And think more people could be. After all, it's the passionate that do change the world.......... However, I still have another suggestion.

Do more.

You come to us and say change the styrofoam cups, change the styrofoam cups, change the styrofoam cups but that's it. Do some leg work. RESEARCH, finds us facts and figures and numbers that show us why we should change, what it'll do for us and what the benifits really are. That's when the administration listens, trust me I know from experience!

And also, when you're in on SGA and in that meeting and you're pushing that Green agenda. Even if it is good for the school/environment/wildlife/whoever. The bigger question you need to remember, is this what your constituents want? DON'T FORGET, You're in that senator seat because of them. Yes, they've entrusted you with some responsibility that you'll know what needs talked about and you'll make the right choice. BUT you don't need to be pushing your own personal agenda everyweek, raising the same issue that we've heard the last 3 weeks. It's AnNoYiNg people and they're caring less and less.

So, yes. I agree. It's important to be green, it's important to do the little things to save the enviroment, but remember. We aren't captain planet, we can't canjoin 5 rings and make things happen. It takes time, money and people and these are some things that don't just come out of nowhere.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My Twitter Tantrum

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a social media junkie.

Just ask the Barista, he makes fun of me on a daily basis for my addiction to blogging,twitter,4square,facebook and my ning networks.

With that addiction comes knowledge; I've learned the ins and outs of most of my social media, but know I have a lot to learn still.

And with that knowledge also comes the responsibility of having to remember that not all people are as "savvy" and they sometimes need "educated". Much like what I deal with @ Simpson when dealing with SGA and CAB.

So, I thought today I would take an opportunity to share with my blog readers and fellow "tweeters", Drew's do's and don'ts of tweeting.

DON'T use four letter words in your tweets. It's just not necessary and makes you look like an uneducated fool when you tweet "F*CK that Sh*T. Thank god it's Friday." Don't forget that your potential employers are looking at your Facebook,twitter and etc. when they are going through your application.

DO use a tiny url when sharing links! You only have 140characters anyway. Don't waste it giving me a link that uses 120 of them. It's simple; put your link into and you'll get a nifty little url to use instead. And it looks alto cleaner and more professional.

DON'T have a "tweet-versation". This might be one of the one's that drives me nuts the most. It's okay to reply to someone or even reply to a reply, but beyond that USE A DIRECT MESSAGE! No one wants to see your conversation about last weekend or see you argue over some movie you both just saw. It's annoying when my phone is blowing up every 30 seconds because you and your friend are conversing back and forth.

DO use correct spelling and punctuation. I don't think I need to elaborate on this one. Like I said earlier, people are paying attention to your tweets and it looks even worse when your tweeting for a company or supposed to be professional. Take 10 seconds to make sure you've used the right "they're/their/there" etc. and you'll look better and annoy less people.

DON'T over share. No one cares that you had a ham sandwich for lunch or that it's been a horrible day and you hate your life. Grab your phone and text or call a friend that actually cares, so you don't waste someone elses time reading about the details of your life.

DO let your personality show through. You don't need to only twitter urls to important newslinks or keep all your twitters about business/professional related things. It's okay to have personality and share some links to entertaining youtube videos are great quotes you've heard. It's just like Facebook. It's a judgement call, it's what you want people to think about you. And if all else fails just think this "Is this a tweet you'd let your grandma see?"

So, next time you go to tweet about your walk in the rain or to share a video, keep these little tips and tricks in mind and you'll look better and your followers will be happier.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Well, that was a mindscrew

So, Barista, myself and a couple of friends went and saw Shutter Island tonight and well, if you like your mind fucked with, this is a movie for you!

It was fantastic!

It's one of those that has you thinking you completely know what's going on 1/2 way through the movie. Then this event happens and you start to second guess, then another happens and you're thinking something else, then a 3rd event happens and you're completely turned around again and then the next you know you feel just as lost and hopeless as poor little Leonardo's character feels.


And I also realized that while I get squemish and treat slasher movies like a VH1 reality show. Something that you don't want to watch, and attempt to look away, but in the end, manage to get sucked into anyway. Well, that's how Barista is when mind game movies. I was sitting on the edge of my seat,adrenaline pumping, ready for something to happen and he was leaning as far away from the screen as possible,half hiding behind his coat.

I read the Ebert review of it on Friday and he referred to it as "haunted house" type of movie. And he was correct. The lights go out right when they shouldn't, the characters walk down the too silent, too dim hall, and you're pissing yourself because you keep waiting for something to happen and of course it doesn't. That was this movie.

The crazy people are amazing. There's the cute old lady you feel bad for and don't know why she's locked up, then she explains that she axed her husband. The dork who sliced his nurses face open, but looks like he wouldn't have hurt a fly and then the crazies that we only see in the dim light, adding to their psychotic appeal.

The movie also gets at your emotional gut as well, playing the card of the mom who drowned her kids and now we see images of hopeless dead ghost children, and also playing all too realistic looking flashbacks of Nazi concentration camps ( part of Leo's past-in the movie).

I can't remember the last time I saw a movie that had my adrenaline pumping as Leo runs down the dim and dark halls of "ward 3" one minute, and then enducing near vomiting and tears while images from the Nazi concentration camps come into view 5 minutes later.

If you like any sort of movie that confuses you, makes you sweat as much as the character you're watching or if you just want to catch a glimpse of Leo with his shirt off. Shutter Island is the movie for you.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Does anyone have a band-aid? I tripped again.

It was yet another exciting and adventurous weekend in the life of Drew.

Friday started out as innocent as it can for a weekend night in my life. We were supposed to go to Des Moines for my BFFs birthday party that was originally supposed to happen a month ago, but the bus broke down when it got to us back in January, so we postponed it. AND THEN more STUPID snow struck Friday, so it once again got axed. SO, we were just going to stick around the house and partake in the weekend.

WELL, then a friend suggested we attempt to venture to Des Moines anyway and go on our own adventure, which we did. AND it was fANtAStIc. I would divulge in details, but they're slighty R rated and require you to be 18 or over. Let's just say Flo-Rida's rendition of "Right 'Round" would have been an appropriate song for the evening. ANNNNNND if you're still confused, it probably means you shouldn't know what I'm talking about =).

But then Saturday rolled and it was time for another exciting and wonderful adventure, but alot more G rated.

This weekend I met Barista's family. Whiiiiich was slightly nervous-ing. Like I've previously mentioned, this is my first legitimate relationship,so with that comes never having to meet parentals. So, I was obvi. nervous, wanting to make a good impression and that whole deal.

But it went well. His mom was cute and fun, we played Mario Kart together for like an hour Sunday morning, and his sisters were nice. SO yea. hopefully I got the stamp of approval.

We also watched "Away We Go" which is that new movie with John Krasinski (Jim from the Office) and Maya Rudolph (SNL) and it was really cute. So I recommend that for your netflix que. We also rented "Bruno" which I had heard mixed reviews about. Some people saying it was horrible and offensive-then others telling me I'd love it (knowing that I tend to enjoy offensive,obnoxious humor). It was okay. Nothing horrrrrrible, but nothing that was side splitting halarious either. and that took up our Saturday night.

Sunday, we had lunch with his former professors, who were great. Your typical funny,charasmatic art professors and then we headed home.

THEN Sunday was just chilling out, a nice long nap after we got back and then we watched the Rob Zombie "Halloween" movie. Which was also quite enjoyable. Well as enjoyable as a slasher movie can be. BUT it gave me an excuse you curl up to Barista multiple times =)

Soooo yeah..that was the weekend.

AND I'm contuing to love this Barista kid more and more. And @ times I do that whole mental double check thing and wonder if I'm falling too fast or if I'm letting my imagination run with it or whatever. Since I've been known to do that.

BUT I like to think I'm not. I feel like I'm keeping myself in check with this relationship. It's not like I'm walking around with weDDing bells going off in my head or picturing the little house with the white picket fence...............I'm just saying I'm not completely writing off that possibility anymore.

IDK. The future, especially with relationships is a scary subject to pick up. You want to be optimisitic and think of the best. But you want to be realisitic. Plus it's a self-preservation kinda thing too going on in the back of my head.

For starters, like just mentioned, I don't want to turn into a 16 year old high school girl, where I think my boyfriend is the one I'm meant to be with forever. BUT I would like to think that there is a future with Barista.

But then thinking that scares me. And I don't want to get HoPeFuL and think about these things, specially since it really has only been 6weeks, get in over my head and then get hurt in the end. Not saying he'd do something stupid. I'm just saying, the fork in the road is getting closer within my line of sight.

Come May, what happens? Will I stay in Des Moines? Go to Pennsylvania and work at camp again? Go somewhere else? These could all have impact on things.

Ugh. It's just a whole web of things that's hard to even talk about on here because my mind goes 50 ways with it.

So, I'll probably shutup now. Before I say something stupid. Or waste anymore of your time.

But needless to say. I'm liking what's happening, and I hope the coffee keeps coming....corny? yes. make sense? hopefully. BUT whatever. I'll say what I want ;)

Thursday, February 18, 2010

We'll have to pass for right now

Something happened to me for the first time today.

I got denied a job.

Yes, that's right.

As you may recall I had interviewed for a job on Tuesday. The interview was slightly awkward won't lie and at the end of it the interviewer told me.

"Well, I'm going to have you do a second interview with our general manager. I"m kinda on the fence about you still. You seem nice, but I didn't get enough 'sales' from you."

And then he proceeded to tell me how important add ons and "upgrades" are vital to making money when you're a server.

That was the first first. I had always "aced" interviews. And usually got the response "well, I like you. I think you'd be a good fit. Let me check your references and we'll get back to you." Or I was usually just hired then.

This was the first tim I was actually told . "welll.. IDK how I feel about you."

But he said he'd call Thursday and that I might not have to do the second interview and they might just hire me and give me a shot.

WELL, I got the cal ltoday, but instead of getting told they were just going to take a chance, I was told they "had decided to pass. But if I wanted to try again in 6 months I should."


And I apologize if I sound like some arrogant byotch. But honestly, I had never actually been denied a job. So it's a slight shot to my ego.

On top of that, I am a damn good server! I know how to be friendly, keep my cool under pressure and multitask. And so really, it's their loss not mine.

But still it sucks.

And now it kinda worries me.

Is this what I'm going to have to deal with in a few months, when I start looking at the real job market? Am I going to get told I wasn't agressive enough? Or that they're "just going to pass?"

Ugh. I'm not liking this right now.

What's funny is just Tuesday morning one of my professors was talking about the importance of selling ourselves. And how life is selling yourself and etc. etc. AND Then I get told that in my interview later that day.

So, turns out I need to be more agressive. That's always been something I've lacked on to begin with. It's not that I don't care. I just get awkward. And feel slightly douchey. And I don't want to be one of those people that's like that Jenn girl or whatever her name is from American Idol last week. Who got told she wasn't in the top 24 and proceeded to freak out and beg and swear she had it in her.

Nope, not my style.

So, now I have to figure my style out I spose. Become a liiiitle more agressive, but not freaky agressive.

ugh. this sucks. Maybe I'm not ready to grow up and look for jobs. Can I just stay in school forever?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I love you, but I don't have to like you

Sometimes I wonder if I really am a people person.

I like to think I enjoy meeting new people, interacting with people yada yada yada.. BUT there are times where I wonder.

For starters, in all reality, I'm not one to introduce myself to people. I'm horrible at it. I hate "making the first move". It's not that I think I'm some hottie-tottie who should be approached and not have to approach. It's that I always feel awkward doing it. If you come up to me and introduce yourself, I'll be friendly and nice. I just can't introduce myself. PLUS I'm horrible at small talk. HaTe It!

Then there's the fact that some people just annoy me. And I'm not talking about the people that annoy me all the time, the people I'm not friends with and the people that I'd rather just punch in the face and tell them to go away. No, those people don't count. They're already lost causes.

I'm talking about the people that I LOVE on some days and other days they annoy me, for no in particular reason. There's just something that bugs me about them at times and I'd prefer them to go away. It's usually a personality thing, but usually I just want to punch them in the face.......and I feel guilty. Because I have no reason to dislike them when I do. I just do.

I also think my age plays a factor. Especially on weekends. For example, we had a registered party last weekend and if I had the choice, I would've kicked out half the people there. Why?
Because it was either douchey athletes who think they're gods gift to campus. Or turboslut freshmen girls who think wearing short skirts and low tops is going to get them free alochol. AND it annoys me. ALOT. I don't get it. Even though I know I was probably somewhere in that mix 3 years ago.

But yea. that's my rant for the day. I don't like people as much as you think. In fact, there are days I just wish I could punch people and get away with it. I think it'd actually be healthier. Than just bottling it up.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Burlesque dancers, fish and Panama City

SO the V-day was a success.

Barista "surprised" me , and surprised is in quotes because he told me about it on Friday, so it wasn't as surprise on Sunday...but anyway...he surprised me with tickets to the St. Vitus and the Taxi Dancers (which is Des Moines' one and only burlesque troop) show, and it was a really good show. There were some saucy sexy numbers and some cute numbers and it was overall entertaining. Granted, the theatre student in me was little more critical than most with a few thigs..but I liked it. And lets face it. nothing says "I Love You" like a boyfriend taking his boyfriend to watch girls dance in their panties....jk..but really, it was fun, and obvi not your typical date for the big V-Day.

And I sucessfully avoided getting him anything sterotypical or disgustingly least I hope. I got him a fish. A big ol black one. the kind with the big eyes. I can't think of the technical name, but hopefully you know what i'm talking about.

Here, this is what it looks like:

Because his other fish, Harriet, had died last week. We decided this one was a boy and named it Jules Winnfield (like after Samuel L. Jackson's character in Pulp Fiction).

I'm slightly worried the things going to croak since I have the WORST luck with fish. But I'm hoping that maybe because it's technically his, the fish will survive....we'll see.

I did get him chocolate though. But not the stupid,sterotypical, overpriced and overdone box of heart chocolate. Just a simple giant bar of Hershey's with Almonds (PS can I pull a Kim Kardashian here and get 10grand for name dropping, even though its not a tweet...its still a mention and I'm on the same level as her, aren't I?) Since that's one of his favorites.

So yea, overall a pretty fantastic v-day. Granted, I don't have any to really compare it to. BUT I liked it.alot.

We also went to a movie on Friday and saw "When In Rome" which was an adorable little slightly lovey-dovey chick flick. Yes, I am one of those gays that likes chick flicks.........But actually it wasn't too bad as far as "chick flicks" go. Annnnnnnnd while he was silently complaning, he's not a fan of those types of movies. He still went with me =). BUT, he can SHHHH anyway, I went to Daybreakers-which was that horrible movie where the world as all vampires and they farmed humans for blood with him awhile ago. So, NOW we're even.. and if he's reading this..THATS RIGHT I SAID IT!

In other news...

I got a B+ on the advertising test I was freaking out about last week. So HORRAY to me. I was really thinking I had scraped by with a C, so I was more than happy with that grade!

Annnd I still hate winter and it's continuing to snow.

Screw you Iowa.

1 month til Panama City!!!!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

In which I epically fail


I was thinking the other day. It's something I do alot of. And I got to thinking about my NYE resolutions and how I have EPICALLY failed at keeping theme.

As a reminder here's what they were:

  • Give Up some vices
  • Workout
  • Become $$ responsible
  • Do what I say I'm going to
  • Do a random act of kindness everyday

1) Give Up Some Vices-okay, so I've actually succeed in this one. I'm not doing some of the stupid crap I used to and I feel about myself for that.

2)Workout-hahaha. The only time I've set foot in Cowles since returning to Simpson is either during an admissions tour or to watch a basketball game =( And I can't even use the busy excuse. I have plenty of time I could get in there and workout, I just don't think about it. I keep telling myself I'll get to it again. But we shall see. I'd still like to. I hate being a scrawny little twink.

3)Become $$ responsible- this one is a toss up. I like to think I'm not as randomly spending as I used to, but I still pry buy things I shouldn't. I think what is also the problem is I have yet to find a part time job. i would be A-OK on things if I was actually working. I've partially attempted to find a PT job but really didn't try as well as I should've..SOOOO I went job hunting today and we'll see how that pans out. The thing is, I get picky. I'm used to being a server and I love that job. Cash at the end of every night and you usally make good$$$. So It's hard to go work a minumum wage job at The Gap or a gas station. Which PS, a big THANKS 4 NOTHING to them. I "re-interviewed" with them in like beginning of January ( I had worked there for over a year back in junior year, but had to leave at the beginning of '09) and the girl was all "okay great, I'll get back to you soon and we'll get you started again. "BUT I've heard nothing. SO I don't want anything to do them. Their loss. I was a great employee! So yea. If I can get a job again, I know I'll be fine!

4) Do what I say I'm going to-ummm...idk about this one either...I don't really know if there's much I've said "okay, this is a new goal". Which maybe is an issue. I don't know. I spose you could say I fail at this one too..ugh..whateve

5)Do a random act of kindness- This one is harder than I thought. I spose it depends on your definition of random act of kindness. If it's just smiling at someone or holding a door open, I'm good. But if you want more from me. well, lo siento. I fail.

I like too, how I swore when I wrote my original blog about these goals back in 2009. I thought 2010 would be different and I'd accomplish them..hahaha...I sounded like some college freshman, bright eyed and bushy tailed. And have since obviously failed..horribly and epically..but that's reallllly nothing new.

eh.oh well.

In other news....

Tomorrow's valentines day. I'm supposed to be spending it with Barista, obvi. BUUUT right now apparenty it is supposed to snow...again..a big EF you to that too...Iowa is now historical, 60+ days with more than 4inches of snow on the ground. SCREW THAT! Ugh..I freakin' hate winter more than I hate obvious closet cases. But hopefully it works out. He got us tickets to this Burlesque show thats going on in DSM..which should be fun, I've heard good things about the troupe..

I'm also currently trying to think of a fantastic costume for a party I have to be at in an hour. The theme is "future" and i have no clue..its too broad..i'll pry go and go with something scandy.. I usually's what gets the best responses..and like everyone says.. I'm fuckin' drew. I'll do what I want.

speaking of..i need to I can do this outfit thing.


Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Conflict of Interest

Okay. So technically I doubt conflict of interest is the correct term, but I am currently facing a personal conflict of sorts.

Here's the deal, as we all know this Sunday is Valentine's Day aka: singles awareness day.

Well, for the first time ever, I will NOT be single on Valentine's Day. And I'm not quite sure what to do.

And I know that sounds awkward, so, time out before your judge and let me explain.

Anyway. Today, as I was walking across campus, dreading my advertising test and thinking of what else I needed to do, v-day came into my mind and I started to brainstorm what I wanted to do for Barista. I've had a few ideas, but won't share them on here because he reads the blog and I don't want to ruin the surprise. But I want it to be something "different" I guess. Not your typical cards and flowers and that. Something that'd be funny. Something he'd like. And I kind of got excited about the idea.,about being able to do something special for my special someone. sidenote: I know that almost sounds slightly disgustingly sentimental..but eh..oh well...

And here's where the conflict comes in.

Up until now I've had pretty much an abhorence for the "holiday," probably because I've always been single.but whatever. There' still a part of me that just doesn't get it. I don't understand why we have to have one special day to show our significant others that we adore them, shouldn't we do that all the time?

To me it's almost like a pissing match with ourselves and even our "lovers". Competing with ourselves to show how much and big we can show we appreciate our boyfriend/girlfriend.
Then you have the couples who just buy the card and their box of chocolates because they feel like they have to. OR you have the needy person who expects to get catered to on V-Day, even though their partner probably spoils them the other 364 days of the year.

So yea, there's part of me that doesn't want to succomb to this whole notion of Valentine's Day.

BUT then there's the hopeless romantic in me who wants to do something for Barista,surprise him (even though that element now may be gone if he reads this) and let him know how I feel besides the normal things I say.

And I should also point out at this time now, is as far as I go, I don't care. I'm not expecting anything from the barista or hoping he does something cute and sweet. Really, I just want to hang out with him for a day again. We probably haven't gotten to spend a decent amount of time together since I've gotten back to school. Thanks to my crazy schedule, his busy work schedule and etc.I really don't know the last time we've spent more than 3 hours in one solid chunk together and it sucks. SO, that's what I'd like for the big day. Legitimate time with my boyfriend =).

So, yea... I'll let you know what happens.

Monday, February 8, 2010

MAYBE it's you...not everyone else

Consider this your warning. The following blog may contain material and statements that offends, particularly if you happen to be of a minority group. I'm here to tell you NOW that I DON'T CARE if it does. And chances are, if you do get offended, it's because you are one of the people I am talking about. AND if it doesn't offend you, well then, happy reading.

Okay, so here's my take on issues that are related to minorities. Whether its due to gender,skin,color, sexual orientation etc. Through the experiences I've either had first hand ,witnessed or heard about, it is my belief that often times these issues of getting the shaft because you're {insert minority here} is bullshit.

Yep. I just said that. I think that most of the time people play the minority card too quickly and too easily and if you took a step back and looked at the situation you would see that you're probably the person at fault, not the white middle class male you're hating on.

YES, there are still unfortunate incidents where legitmate racism/heterosexism/sexism are occuring and I recognize that, and I am just as angry about the injustice as you are, but I think those times often times are less in number than the "supposed" ones.

Take for instance this kid on campus. He's a tool. He's cocky,douchy and walks around like he's a gift to SC. 9am to 3pm when he's in class he's a well dressed,well spoken, somewhat competant person. But after 5pm, he's a overly large brightly colored shirt wearing, pants halfway down his ass toten, sideways hat,fake swagger struttin individual. WTF!? This individual often calls the race card, when really its for the aformentioned reasons people hate on him.

In addition, I recently heard about an incident where residents of a campus housing unit were playing their music way too loud at midnight,which is designated "quiet hours". This wasn't the first time it has happened, it happens nightly. Well, the neighbor went to the CA and complained. When the CA asked the accused party to quiet down the residents got pissed, went to the dean of students who works with the minority students on campus and complained. Now, CA's are afraid to enforce the rules that everyone else has to live by, with persons of a minority, because they've been told to be careful. Since apparently, enforcing the rules on a room of students blaring music at 12am is racism.

Women are the same way. No, actually you're not getting the shaft because you're a woman, you're getting it because you're underqualified, can't meet work expectations.

And even the gays. Shut up. And I'll admit I am guilty of it at times. But no one really gives a shit or thinks about your sexuality. You're getting made fun of because your acting like a d-bag.

I think if minorities just shut up and lived their lives like we expect everyone else to, we would be A-OK. There wouldn't be issues.

I actually feel bad for the white, middle class, heterosexual man. He's the one that gets hated on. He can't make a sexist comment because then he's a machoistic pig. Makes a comment about blacks and he's racist and uses the term gay he's homophobic. GET OVER IT!

We all live into our sterotypes lets get real. We all admit it and we make fun ourselves for it, so why can't others? And if you want to get technical, they're the ones that made up the jokes and names for us, so shouldn't they have dibs on using them?

I'm not a racist. I believe in equal opportunity for everything and etc. and I know that there still is legitimate issues with payment in the workplace and stuff like that. But people need to quit making such a fuss and live and let live.

Then maybe, we would get along.

Silly Brain, don't you know how to keep quiet?

I consider myself a pretty confident person. I'm outgoing,friendly and know how to carry on a conversation. I have no problem taking charge in group work and I love when assignments let me present in class. I know how to laugh at myself, look forward to job interviews and love being on stage.

But like most "confident" people, I have a very "non confident" side. Especially when it comes to relationships.

For some reason boys are one of the issues that i am not at all confident in. Like I said when first introducing you to Barista, I didn't chat him up originally because I'm a big wimp. I fear rejection and always expect the worst when I start hanging out with a guy.

And while things with Barista are quite a bit different than my previous attempts at relationships, I still find alot of the questions that plauge the back of my mind, still there, rotting away.

The biggest thing is cheating. I blame this on "1".

"1" to tell you the whole story and history of my relationship with 1 would take way too long, and maybe i'll talk about that another day. But I'll do my best to give you a cliff notes version.

1 was my best friend freshman year. He was the kid I could go to anything about and I 100% trusted him. We fell in love, HC style. I was madly, head over heels, madly in love with this kid. Well, we were both living on campus for the summer and one weekend I had "on-call" duty. So i couldn't leave campus. He wanted to go out and so he went up to DSM and went out with our friend A. Well, come to find out, after he drunkly admits to me a few weeks later. He actually didn't stay at A's when he was up in DSM he slept with J, a guy that I used to hang out with earlier in the year. And while there's a whole lot more baggage that goes with it, this was pretty much the catalyst for my ever present fear that any guy I date is going to drop a similar bomb on me.

WELL, fast foward to today. I'm sitting in my room, doing my own thing and my phone rings. I don't recognize the number and I answer, and the conversation went a little something like this:

Z: " this Drew"
me: "yea..."
Z: "well, I don't you know.....but...well, I wanted to let you know I slept w/ Barista"

*insert sinking heart, jaw drop, adrenaline pump through the veins here*

me: "um...well, okay....."
Z:" I'm really sorry...i know you don't know me..but I just found out about you and i didn't think it was right and I wanted you to know'
me (struggling for words): " did you meet him"
Z: "we met at the Saddle (one of the gay bars in DSM) and things hit off and we've been sleeping together for awhile."
Me: "........okay......"
Z: "Dude..I'm sorry.. I know its not right..but i wanted you to know...he's player..he's playing you and he's playing me"
me: (10 seconds from the breakdown) " okay..............well.......thanks....i guess..."
and I hang up.

My body still wasn't sure how to hands were shaking, the tears were beginning to fall and I just didn't know what to do. My body was pretty much numb and I didn't know what was going on. I was confused.

I pick up the phone and attempt to begin to dial Barista .Adrenaline taking over and me just wanting to confront the issue immediatly.

Enter B, C and T.

"we're sorry. it was us, it was a joke, don't call Baritsa".

The assholes has called me as a prank. I didn't have B's number in my phone, so it was him that called and they were fuckin' messing with me.

Relief swept over and I wanted to punch the stupid bitches in the face.

But yea...when i first heard that barista was "sleeping" with Z my heart dropped...and the first thing that went through my mind was

"oh fuck. of course".

And not because I don't trust Barista. It has nothing to do with that.

It was because once again I thought my worst fear had come true and what made it worse is because it was someone that I was beginning to fall in love with. And it was made apparent to the guys too.

After they confessed that it was them and they walked in on me; phone in hand, tears in the eyes, T was like " wow, you really do care about him."

So yea. I felt bad too. For even thinking that maybe it was true. Even though if I would have listened better and thought quicker on my feet I would've known that things didn't match up. For starters, Barista hates the gay bars.

And I can tell you that there was some questioning in the back of my mind. 1) how did he get my number and 2) gays are sometimes crazy and maybe it's just some bitter ex or person he rejected. But that was dismissed by the overwheling other feelings that were going on.

But yea. IDK..I trust him and I love him, that's right...I said LOVE...and while I'm not "in love". I think there's a difference. He is someone I love. He's fun, cute, caring and somehow manages to deal with me when I'm being an angry whiney bitch,drunken idiot and needy and attention beggy. Which I know takes alot. SO, he's someone I want to keep around for awhile.

But for some stupid reason my second guessing with issues like that won't leave me alone. AND it happens when our textual conversations suddenly end or if he doesn't text back in awhile. My mind begins to wander, "why isn't he texting" "did I say something" etc etc etc.

And it all annoys me. I don't want to be that guy and while I do have a good handle on it and can do a decent job on keeping myself in check, the reality is it's still there. AND I don't want it to be.

Soooo yea. I hate my brain. It still overthinks way too much, I don't know why it won't shutup and let me be happy. Even though Barista has done a good job of getting to calm down alot more than it is in the past, it still overthinks a little too much.

BUT that's the update of sorts.

We're still together =), its actually been a little over a month already. Which, for anyone that knows me, is quite a big deal.

But yea. things are going good and I feel like they will for awhile. AND this will be my first ever NON SINGLE valentines day. But it really hasn't changed my feelings about the day. I still think it's a big stupid "celebration". I'd rather buy him things and spoil him some random day during the year, why should Hallmark and the chocolate companies tell me when it should be?

So, yea. Hopefully the brain will shutup and let me be. That'd be nice.

Monday, February 1, 2010

I'm Not Dead

Okay, so sorry..kind of fell off the face of the blogging planet for a few days and I really don't have an excuse....well sorta..

Life has somehow managed to become just as busy as it has been for me the previous 3 years of my life; with classes, meetings, etc etc. etc. something I was thinking was finally NOT going to happen this semester. But I'm hoping it was a one-off week and things will get back to my "new" normal ASAP.

But anyway. yea. This week was legit crazy busy. between starting the internship-which has been fantastic. my normal weekly meetings w/ CAB and SGA. Plus a preliminary planning meeting for Campus Day (this really big campus wide event that happens every year). I had to go to 2 faculty meetings this last week, because a committe is now trying to pass some BS assesment program that would totally screw over the students. Then there was Board of trustees all day Friday. Annnnd that may be about it. ..but yea.. Wednesday I was literally in meetings,classes or other responsibility type things from 11am til about 10pm...

And usually I don't really mind, but this week it's just really bugged me and I was a cranky stress case most of the week and IDK why. It's nothing new, it's the way my life has been since pry about sophomore year, so i'm not sure why it was such a drain this week. i think it's because 1) i didnt really see it coming. I thought life was finally really calm and non busy and lazy and then BAM! I was on the go-go-go...and it threw me off...and then getting thrown off threw me off even more .because I was getting stressed and pissed that I was stressed and pissed....the same things happens with boy issues...I get upset, and then I get upset, I'm upset, because I have no reason to be upset to begin with (but boy issues currently..i'll explain in a few mins).

So yea..and then this week looks about to be the same. I have the "big" faculty meeting on Tuesday where they are going to attempt to vote on this proposed program, my normal 5 meeting Wednesday, and then the Iowa College Media Conference Thursday and Friday, some leadership retreat on Friday and Saturday, our 2nd annual Simpson's Got Talent on Saturday and then I THINK Sunday should be a rest day.

BUUUUT enough of me bitching about my schedule. I really do like it most of the time, its just a bit annoying at times.

In a boy update...Barista is still fantastic,ike amazingly fantastic.....i kinda feel like a dork when I talk about it..but its one of those, it just feels right type of relationships.haha.idk....i've just never actually had one,this is my first legit relationship ever and so its kinda scary, because I like the kid....alot......and so now its like, if for some stupid god forsaken reason things fail. It'll be rough,like I've said before, I'm a theatre kid @ heart SO I can get a bit dramatic specially when it comes to boys ask anyone I yea...but he's quickly climbing my favorite people list.And what's even better is the brothers like him too and they now threaten that they like him better than me....

(and by brothers I mean my fraternity brothers that mean the world to me and they're the people I'm closest to in my life, and their opinions are the ones that weigh the most)

So that gets him points....except when he joins in with them when they pick on me, which happens alot....

But yea..he's really cute.....and he's a slight dork..which I like...he's a graphic designer, and a video game nerd....which I know doesn't automatically qualify a person to be a dork, BUT he knows it...he self proclaims it actually...

But I digress...i'm turning into one of those people that raves about their boyfriend too much..someone I would pry normally want to punch in the face...and so I should pry shutup...but whatever.....and he's pry reading this too...and so I'd like to tell him he better not get a big head over this or I'll punch him ( well I'll probably have to have someone punch him, i've already tried and he's stronger than me :( )

but this blog is getting long and if you're attention span is as long as mine, you've probably already left the computer 3 different times to do other things or checked your facebook,twittered and maybe checked into 4square. So I shall peace out and hopefully get back to you a little sooner than this time!

Friday, January 22, 2010

It's always a climb to the top

I had a realization the other day.

I realized that even as a college senior and I'm guessing it'll continue after, but there's always going to be a social heiarchy and that need for "acceptance".

And I'm not talking about the rich, poor middle class type social ladder. I mean the cool/"not cool"/ wannabe cool type heiarcy that we all succomb to.

I was with a group of my friends and it kinda dawned me as we were all hanging out and guys were interacting and I noticed it. And it's always the same type of setup or whatever. Everyone kinda had that "role", just like in HS.

First there's the kid who's COOL just because. The one that just has that natural personality that everyone draws to, everyone wants to be around and they kinda set the tone. They're the "influencer", the one that creates nicknames or sayings and they catch like WiLdFiRe They don't try to fit in or be "cool", they just are.

Then you have the "sidekick", the person who's usually at the right hand of the "influencer". This person is considered cool by everyone, but you can tell he tries. He has that constant NEED to be with the "in crowd" and always needs to be part of the ExClUsIvE clique. They have a need to exclude people, so they feel like they're special and better. The sidekick can't do anything alone either. They need people to follow them, do what they want or they'll do what someone else is because they don't know how to do things alone.

Then there's the "wannabe". The kid that tries so hard to fit in and be hang out with the "cool" kids, but always slightly fails. The "cool kids" are nice to him and keep him around, but for some reason he always falls just short of reaching that "cool rung" on the social ladder.

You also have the "soloist". The guy that isn't part of the "in crowd" and he doesn't care, because he doesn't try. He has NO interest in being popular, which ironically enough usually makes him popular; because everyone respects and appreciates his dismissal of the social structure.

Every group usually has the "floater". The kid who fits everywhere, but nowhere. He has the ability to hang out with almost any group, but has no permanent place in any of them; leaving him kind of homeless. This kid probably wants to be "cool", but isn't willing to completely conform and follow like the "sidekick" does. He kinda just does his thing, attempting to fit in, sometimes WINNING, sometimes failing and he's not really bothered either way.

I hadn't really thought much about this in awhile, not since high school really. When I was definitally more on the loser end of things. Being the only gay kid in a school 200 kinda of handicaps you socially. But I was fine with it, really. I was one of the kids who was ready to graduate when I was in the 8th grade and was too aNnOyEd with the whole social battle.

In college I've actually been "popular", and its been fUn. And I still didn't really think about this whole social structure that always seems to exist until I noticed it with my friends. And it was pretty much like I just described. "S" is our influencer, just doing what he wants and people love him for it. "B" is his sidekick, excluding people at times, doing his best to always have people with him, and just always trying to fit in. L is the wannabe. He's a gr8 kid and means well, but he just kinda falls short. And I'd consider myself the floater. I love hanging out with them and have a good time with them. But i'm not really that afraid to say no and do what I want.

But it hit me. And I kinda laughed about it. Thinking how even when we're 30 ,we are probably going to deal with it. Some people stepping on others to fit in. Some wanting to fit in so bad and others not caring at all.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Love? Clubs? What? YOU ARE 15!


Little teen twerps singing about love and going to the club and hating and cheating whatever else annoy me beyond belief!!

I tend to not be a violent person, but really I could probably PuNcH Justin Beiber in. the. face!

And while, I am in love with Miley Cyrus, something Barista doesn't get. And even though I am borderline obsessed with "Party In The U.S.A.", I kinda want to SLAP her in the face... I mean realllllly?? You aren't nodding your head or moving your hips in the club... You.Are. 16!!! Tell your washed up has been of a dad to find you new material .Sing about getting your license or going to the mall. Isn't that what you do @ 16?

Same with STUPID Justin Beiber.

"Your world is my world
And your fight is my fight
My breath is your breath
and your heart
and girl your my one love, my one heart
my one life, for sure"
Really!?! You are 15!! My one life? How do you know about one life? All you know is playing basketball and milk and cookies? Seriously? ugh...
However, I DO get pleasure out of the fact that alot of people when first hearing the song get excited and think its a lesbian love song because his pre-pubescent voice sounds like a chick.
A few years ago, that girl Jo Jo had the same thing...singing at the age of 14 about "cheating" and other girls. What did your "boyfriend" do? Hold someone else's hand at recess?
I do NOT get why these teen little twerps think people actually enjoy listening to them sing about love and loss and stuff that they are YEARS from experiencing .Further more, why the HELL are their parents letting them sing about it..oh wait..yea..nvm....the millions they're making of their child selling albums and touring because tweeny little girls love them and make mommy and daddy buy their cds,posters,t-shirts and concert tickets.
So, yea. a little bit of advice and note to anyone out there that may be 13 and wanting a career in music. SING ABOUT STUFF YOU KNOW!! Like the mall and the Disney Channel and annoying brothers and sisters or even abusive parents. I don't care. Just shut up about finding your true love and the club and cheating boyfriends and girlfriends. You sound stupid and we all know you have no clue what you are talking about!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Is this aisle open? I'm ready to CHECK OUT

It's finally settling in......Something I really didn't think would happen to me. Something that I've been dreading for the last 3 years and now, but as I begin to accept its unavoidable and going to happen no matter what, I've succombed-unconsciencly, but now I've realized it...and am okay with it.

My friends, I'm officially a victim of senioritis.

If you would have asked me if I was ready for graduation back in August, I would have said NO WAY JOSE!!! But as the year has progressed I'm slowly getting ready for it.

I'm slightly getting ExCiTeD about the idea of growing up and having a real job. I'll miss all the holiday breaks and ability to act irresponsible and blame it on college, but I'm also excited to see the real world..i think. What actually really excites me though, while also being slightly scary, is the idea that I could really, do whatever come May. I could pack up leave and head to Europe if I wanted. I could move to the streets. I could move to NYC. The opportunities are endless and its one of the most exciting yet terrifying feelings ever.

Don't ask what I want to do though. I'm still not quite sure. Some days I want to do event planning for the entertianment or art world-the next I want to go corporate. Some days I want to just move to Australia for a year, just for something different and to be a bum. I've also thought about doing PR work. Maybe journalism. I'm also still trying to decide if I want to go back to camp for the summer or if I want to find an internship somewhere, like maybe with the pageant people and actually make $$$...idk.. I'm not really much of a plan-aheader, so I'll pry decide in April or May =)

Okay, so anyway. I am most definitally checked out already and have the mindset of "I'm a senior, I don't really care". Classes don't really feel like classes. Maybe it's only because I have 1 a day..but i just it there kinda all "eh, i'm here..not really paying attention" etc.. and usually, I'm engaged and interested in whats going on. not so much anymore.

I also see it with some activities on campus, its just like. I don't really care. I'm gone, I gave my leadership and time for the last 3 years, let someone else take over.

But it's also not a great thing. I'm working really hard to make sure I don't check out of being student body president. I would really like to do something fantastic and kinda leave my mark. So when I leave, my advisor and the ppl on SGA remember that Drew did something worthwhile....Which I think will happen. I mean, i legit care about this organization and would like to see a few things happen, and I definitally now have the time to put into them. So I think I can manage that.

ANND, I'm also excited because I'm working on an internship with the Des Moines Social Club. So that'll be exciting. I've talked to the guy I'll be working with , and it sounds like I'll get to help with alot of the event stuff and that'll be PERFECT and exciting!

So yea.... sorry that this blog is a slight tidge random and not really that eloquent..haha..not that my others are..this one just feels more random than even the others though....

but yea..idk..i'm checked out..i'd much rather sit in my sweats and watch tv all day ( which I actually did Monday) than go to class or be productive....maybe I just need to get back into the swing of things.....idk..i spose we'll see.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I'm Sick & Tired that YOU'RE "sick and tired"


So I like to think that I'm a pretty laid back person when it comes to things bothering me. I really feel like there's not alot that does besides; stupid people, cold weather and ARROGANT JERKS. But when talking about schedules etc. today with a friend an issue came up that can often set me off into a rant, and that would be the people that always whine and mOaN about how much they have to do, how tired they are, how busy they are etc.

Here's the deal; previous to this semester, I was a pretty BuSy person. During my last 3.5 years at college I was involved in almost every group possible; CAB president my sophomore and Junior year, CAB marketing director this previous semester, I've had a position on IFC since my freshman year, I've always had a work study , usually a part time job or even two, I've held a couple executive offices in my fraternity, 16 credit hours every semester, EAC, AI, I've been an editor for our school newspaper since my sophomore year, I've been a community service scholar, serve on a regional planning committee for an organization and etc. SO with that, my days were usually pretty looooooong, starting with class at 9am and going till about 6 or 7pm, sometimes MiDNiGhT if we had a comedian or CAB event.

But the thing is, I LOVED it! That's how I thrive. Right now I'm still getting used to having free time in the middle of the day.

Yeah, @ times it would get sTrESsfUl and I felt like I needed to punch someone or pull my hair out, but I did my best not to complain....why? Because I SIGNED UP FOR IT! I knew what I was getting into when I joined this club or that. I knew it would be ALOT of responsibilty and a big time commitment, so I felt slightly HyPoCrItIcAL turning around and complaining. On top of that, I wasn't an idiot. I knew there were plenty of people who were just as busy, some probably even busier than I was.

So, a message to those of you that complain all the time. SHUT UP! You are not the only busy one! You should have know when you took on the responsibilities that it would get stressful @ times It reallllllly annoys those of us that are busy too. It gets tiring hearing "Oh my gawd..i'm so busy..i haven't slept. ETC etc etc."

Besides, if you're really that busy, are you really accomplishing anything? I've learned this the hard way. But if you have yourself split 50 different ways, chances are you aren't putting enough effort into all your groups/responsibilities and then not only are YOU losing, but the group you are SUPPOSED to be helping is losing out too.

So cut back, focus more time on less activities and do something awesome with them.

But if you do decide you want to sleep 4 hours every night and have groups coming out your years, don't complain to me! You chose it, now deal with it!

Friday, January 8, 2010

They're Not Just Pretty Faces

SO, every once in awhile I actually have a topic that I'm serious & or passionate about. It doesn't really happen too often, but on ocassion it does, and THIS would be one of those topics.

Last year I started volunteering for Miss USA state preliminary pageants...and for those of you who may be confused....Miss USA is the one owned by Donald Trump and seen on NBC and the one that can ultimately lead to Miss Universe. But anyway..

I got hooked up with the gig through this board I serve on for our regional NACA meetings; I'm the student rep and the woman who is our associate rep, also owns a company that produces these pageants. Welll, during our summer meeting 2 summers ago, we were chatting and I mentioned I wanted to do event planning when I grow up and she asked me to help her with pageants and bla bla bla...HERE I AM.

I jumped into this experience expecting what most people think; big boobs, big hair, big ATTITUDES and lots of dresses and swimsuits. WELL, after my first pageant last fall my preception COMPLETELY changed.

These girls are NOT the BiTcHy,self engrossed,make up caked women, so many of us think.

These girls are Confident, motivated, smart young women who want to CHANGE the world, and I guarantee you that most will.

While volunteering at the Miss Minnesota USA pageant I met a girl who CLIMBED Mt. Kilamanjaro and raised $6,000 to fight AIDS, @ Miss Minnesota USA I met a girl who wrote a book EmPowErinG young women, I met another who's danced world wide and yet another who created a company that works with young women to give them CONFIDENCE and poise. & This is just in 1 state.

While the movie "Miss Congeniality" attempts to make fun of pageants and admittedly gets some things head on, it also got something else right....... these girls really do want world peace.

They're fighting to do something PoSiTiVe, not only for themselves, but for the people around them.

YES! Occasionally you find the beauty queen who likes to think she walks on a red carpet and is God's Gift to the world, but 90% of the time, these girls are FuN, energetic, oUtGoInG, and the sweetest things ever.

These girls are smart; most of them have 4.0s, studying everything ranging from Journalism and Communications to Spanish and Biology.

Some critics may complain about the swimsuit competition. Claiming that pageants cause girls to become anorexic and promote unhealty eating behaviors. WRONG! I'm not going to deny that some girls do go down the wrong path and skip their meals or pray to the procelin gods after eating. But most don't. These girls learn how to eat healthy, how to work out, stay in shape and get that healthy well toned body. Something a majority of us are TOO LAZY, to work on! The judges don't want to see walking ribcages onstage, trust me.

I will admit that is unfortunate that in the end, what is going really help the get the girl the crown is how pretty she is, and that it's ironic of sorts that while these girls are doing all these gr8 things and working their tails off, in the end it comes down to her face. I would like to point something out before anyone gets too EnRaGEd at this and tries to fight againt the pageant system.

Whoever wins the title of Miss USA is going to spend the following year traveling all over the COUNTRY promoting and working with all sorts of charities and causes, and who is the general American public going to listen to? Who is REALLY going to get peoples attention and get them 2 lend a hand? The beautiful sPUnKy brunette that stands OUT in the crowd. OR the short squat girl who looks like everyone else.

It sounds bitchy and it sounds blunt and it even sounds a little too simplified. BUT lets get real, it's the truth. Society likes pretty people and Miss USA uses that to do some good!!!

So next time, before you crack a joke or yell at the tv when you see that the Miss USA pageant is coming up, don't mock. Remember that these girls have worked so so sooooo hard to get to that level.!!And that really, they're just doing their BEST to make a difference,for themselves and for the world.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

And there goes that big fat mouth while I had intended on talking about pageants in this next segment, once again a newer topic of discussion has come up that I'd prefer to discuss. a previous couple ,of blogs I talked about "P", for those of you who regularly read this, you'll notice thats not his original nickname. Well, while I thought that nickname I had given P was cReAtIvE,CATCHY and anonymous, apparently it wasn't. See, Drew forgot that some people in my area, actually read the blog and in true "only Drew" fashion, the blog got passed on to P and he READ it and obvi wasn't the biggest fan.

So, I got a facebook message from him and he explained to me why he didn't ever get back to me and called me out on a few of the comments I had made. AND explained his side of the story....

And it made sense...I got caught up in the bitter rejection swing of things and said a few things that pry weren't the smartest things to say on my blog. Especially since my words of ocassional wisdom are there for EVERYONE to see :S

I'm not going to take back everything I said, I did say it, and it is what I was thinking at the time, but would like to remind all my readers that I don't really ever edit or censor . And as cliche as it sounds, I blog from the heart. When I'm in blog mode it flows and I don't really stop. And lets get real, I studied theatre in college, I can be a bit OVeRdRAmaTiC.

I wasn't trying to be vengeful,spiteful, or hateful. And I wasn't trying to bAsh his name to those that did happen to know him. Soooo I apologize for hurting feelings and offending.

So yea...thats kinda the story on that. The blogging thing is TrIcKy. Yea, it's in a public forum and on-line for the world to see, but sometimes it feels anonymous at the same time since so many people that actually read this don't really know me or the ppl I talk about.

So yea. Turns out I may need to come up with better nicknames in the future....


The weather SUCKS...I HaTe winter. I really don't get how people "enjoy" it and the snow. Yea, okay.. so snow days are gr8, YAY no school..but they also kinda suck. I mean, its obvi crapppy outside, so you can't go out and do things to CelEbrAtE no classes. And then the roads are pain in the rear end, and I loathe driving in this weather.

ALSO, I found out Barista Boy reads the blog.......he's a fan =)! So yay on that!!

No other major activities...I realized my mind likes to wannnnder alot and I thought of a few great topics for future editions....... if there's magically some moment where I don't have something actually going on in my life.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

boys,jobs and being on time


So I'm getting ready to head up to Minneapolis to help out with Pageant Power week, and plan on blogging a bit more about that.....there's ALOT that goes into Miss USA pageantry that most people don't know about and the girls that compete definitally don't get the credit they deserve, but I've decided I can let that all out in a post at a later look for that soon.

BUT today I thought I'd just talk about a few updates and a couple events in my life that can only be classified as something that makes my friends laugh and say "only you".

Sooo okay..first off...things with Barista Boy are still going fantastic!! We hung out NYE, and then went to AVATAR 3-D on Friday (which is an AMAZING movie), it actually has a legit storyline PLUS great visuals!!!!! And we were up till ike 2 texting the other night and have plans to hang out tomorrow, after I get back from the MN..

But yea, I'm still diggin him. I realized the other day that I'm way more comfortable with him than I am with most people in general. I consider myself to be a fun person, but I'm not really ever that "goofy" , but with him I am. IDK.....its fun......

In other news.....I finally have a new part time job...starting Sunday I will be a go-go dancer at a club in West Des Moines(this would be one of those "only you" situations)...haha yuuup..apparently this club wants dancers on Sunday afternoons...which works for me......Sunday's are usually my- nurse my hangover, only leave my couch to pee and eat, watch lifetime movies with my roomates girlfriend all day-day. So it should be a good time and its pretty legit pay =) Which will be nice since I have a Spring Break trip to pay for.

Oh side note, in reference to P..welllllll... I was out on the town w/ my BFF Pocket Saturday night and we definitally ran into him...well sorta...we saw him there and we know he saw us...but there was never any "pleasantries" exchanged..... which was A-OK and I felt even better about myself because while I've upgraded and am now hanging out with Barista, he was with some uggo, I felt pretty good =)

I also have a new addition to the resolutions....another thing I need to work on is "being on time". I am NiToRiOUs for being late and I'd like to fix even made a comment the other I had no clue she was making meday..she got mad because I was late for the dinner ....but then she's like.."well, I should've known. You're never on time anyway". So, we're going to work on being punctual.

okkkay...but I think that's it for now...nothing too exciting..Lo Siento...well, i take that back....things with Barista are exciting...

But yea.


Saturday, January 2, 2010

Another attempt at 2010 Goals

Oh's now my turn to try and hammer out the goals that usually get about a month of attention and hard work before getting givin up on or forgotten about and I go back to my normal,inappropriate college student life....well usually...

BUT I have high hopes and a good feeling about 2010. Yes, its another new year, another dollar.BUT It's also A NEW DECADE and another sign that "grown up world" is getting dauntingly closer. PLUS most of these goals are things I've been working within the last month, and have actually managed to stick to thus far, So we'll see how it goes.

  1. Give Up some vices-I'm actually not going to share these vices on here, seeing as there is that chance that people who shouldn't see them would see them. But lets just say, I have been known to gulitly pleasure myself (ha.that sounds wildly inappropriate) with a few things that could get dropped....And's not any sort of drug addiction....just FYI
  2.'re probably thinking "WOW DREW, what an original goal for new years!!"...haha..well shutup....this is actually one that I've been doing fairly good @ recently..well, I was until break came and I haven't had access to the gym, but i'm back on campus already. So, hopefully I'll get back into the routine. goal isn't to lose weighT......its actually the opposite..this kid, is a scrawny little- or what is commonly referred to in the gay community-"twink". I'm wanting to add some meat to my bones, preferably in the form of muscle, and thats one big reason for the work out goal . But also, you just always feel better after you workout, like you've legit did something during the day. PLUS it's a great stress reliever too.
  3. Become $$ responsible- my parents would love to see this one. Even though I've had a job since I was about 16, I've still managed to ePIcAlLy FaIl at being financially responsible and doing that whole budgeting thing. And it's finally started to kick me in the teeth the last couple months. So my goal is to find a part time job again because I actually did opt not to work this first semester AND spend the money a little smarter. ie: less trips to the Starbucks, eat out less and actually attempt to budget.
  4. Do what I say I'm going to-too often I get these ideas to do this or that, but never follow through. And it turns out that the times I do follow through it usually works out (ie: actually auditioning for Real World junior year and making it to semi-finals). WELL, this year I'm going to actually follow through more often. When I say I'm going to audition for Big Brother, I'm going to. When I decide I want to apply for that internship, I'm actually going to do it. I'm figuring this maaaaay come in handy, since I do need to start thinking about the whole job and future thing a little more seriously now =(
  5. Do a random act of kindness everyday-I figure that in the road to self-improvment and working on things that are bettering me. I could also lend a hand to bettering those around me. SOOO, my goal is to do a random act of something nice everyday. Even if its, picking up the trash I walk by on campus or holding the door for someone juggling too many bags. Just something that can make someone else SmILe or help out in someway.

sooo...yea, those are the top 5 for this year. We'll see what happens. I'm really feeling like this is going to be a good year..I'm HOPING I'm right! I guess time will tell...

so yea, I'll leave with a mantra I've picked out for the next 364 days...

2010...Live it. Love it. Own it.